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Heather

Heather is going to be tougher than I thought. She almost opened up about her ptsd when she was a child that’s effecting her. But I didn’t push. I just acknowledged it. I also asked her how she measured life if she measures it by busyness because she’s always busy. She said she’s just grateful. […]

This Is It

I am writing this letter because I care about my life. I never been arrested in my life. Then as soon as I was discharged from the military within months I was arrested for multiple DUIs. For the last 15 years Ive been getting arrested because I didn’t care about my life. The problem has […]

RUNNER

It’s lunch time, so I take a break from the gym and head over to this new AA meeting a block away. I got tired of the arrogant, know-it-all pricks at the Easy Does It Club. I grab a cup of coffee and sit way in the back. Minutes later this MILF looking broad walks […]

Memorial Day is the Day I kill Myself

It’ll be exactly 2 weeks before I kill myself. Memorial Day is the day. I can finally join my fellow comrades. I put myself here and allowed this trainwreck of an existence to carry on. My mind is made up and there’s no going back. I just want to make sure the collateral damage is […]

April 15, 2023 / by Rezod /

Left Outside Alone

The last four years have been intense. Long story short, I got into drugs heavy; jumped out of a 60 mph moving car then off a bridge; was approached by the chief narcotics officer for selling Xanax, meth and fentanyl from the dark web; had my life threatened multiple times; framed for murder and dealt […]

The truth about Ahmaud Arbery

When I was a teenager I use to go on my jogs as a cover to case out houses all the time to make sure it was safe for me to burglarize. There were a handful of times a neighbor became suspicious but the last thing I ever did was escalate the situation like this […]

January 2, 2022 / by Rezod /

It All Ends The Same

I’ve been getting worse every day of my life. I can go through the detailed laundry list of excuses and try to convince you (for my sake) how i logically came to this point in time with the towel thrown in, but the truth is I’m not special. I’ve somehow come to terms with not […]

No Tomorrows

Poof. Nothingness. Imagine with a snap of a finger no longer existing. The dredged feeling of doom spiking the final death of this fantasy of Life. With words what I’m trying to explain here is indescribable. It’s a dreary Doom and an anticipated hopelessness like being stuck in an elevator that’s slowly filling up with […]

March 2, 2021 / by Karma Lilly /

Heart-Dropping Fear.

Have you ever felt someone’s heart-dropping fear? I have! Bits of this memory are foggy to me because it’s been a few years. However, it’s a memory that haunts my mind endlessly! It was nighttime. The moon was out. Mom, my younger sister and I were inside our house when a popping sound overwhelmed us. […]

Kidney Infection from too much Dope (fentanyl and a Risk Reduction Mindset)

Just woke up no blood at all for 20 seconds until I started to go “fast” at the end of “the pee.” I slightly felt the burn again each time I attempted to “push” the stream out faster. Definitely just a cut in the worst spot a man could imagine. Thick globs of blood splashing […]